Sample Mini Dream Reading

The following is an actual mini dream reading that has been published with the dreamers' permission. Italicised text indicates the dreamers' input. No dream interpretations are ever published without written consent from the dreamer.

Dream submitted by Daiva 23/11/02
Davia’s Dream:
Last night I formulated this question for my dream "Will me and Paul (my lover) ever be together in spite of everything?" In the dream, we were talking in a bedroom. I was trying to tell him that I still love him, and was apologising for something I've done wrong. He was rejecting me, couldn't forgive me. And then I realised I left this all and I was crossing the street. Right on the street I met a man who was offering a kind of lottery tickets to play a lottery. I refused. It was morning and I knew I needed to take a bus to go home. I also knew that Paul would forgive me somehow. I was hoping. I don't know how to interpret this bad dream.

Additional comments:
I've been madly in love with my lover, Paul for 7 years, he lives in another country, and is single. I live in Lithuania and have been married for 16 years, but failed to get pregnant with my husband. I got pregnant 4 years ago with Paul, when I was visiting him. He wasn't ready for this abrupt change. My husband thought it was his child. After this Paul changed his mind, asked me to be with him. I was lost, I couldn't make myself trust him again. So I asked him to wait, to work out what we really want. A few months later I had a miscarriage. Paul comforted me and was promising lots of things. It took time - about 8 months to finish this dissertation. During all this time we used to be in love, in touch by e-mail, used to plan our future...although I was so much in love with him I was afraid his feelings may change, and maybe never trusted him fully. We met last year for the last time. Paul said he is not ready for any duties and obligations, not ready to stay with me, have children. But he said he loved me very much.

Interpretation:
This dream has several layers to it, however given that this is a mini reading, I will focus primarily on the areas that address your incubated question of: "Will me and Paul ever be together in spite of everything?"

Firstly the dream is showing you that you remain at Paul's mercy and that he essentially has the upper hand in this relationship, and that you will never fully have the approval which you seek from him. It also shows that crossing over to the other side i.e. away from your marriage to a life with Paul is a high risk option where the odds of "winning" or achieving your dream with him are remote and are essentially stacked against you. I believe that your inner being knows this and this is why you refuse the ticket. Finally you wake up to the fact that the grass isn't greener on the other side and go to where your sense of true stability and comfort lies - at home.

Another layer to this dream focuses on the aspect of guilt and forgiveness-seeking. My first impression of the conversation that took place at the beginning of the dream was that it was in fact a conversation that you would at some level like to have with your husband. It seemed to reflect your inner being's desire to find absolution through coming clean with your husband, but the fear of being rejected by him too prevents you from doing so. The forgiveness that you truly seek is from within and finding a way to forgive yourself is a fast track to releasing yourself from this cycle of self-defeating guilt, which is essentially preventing you from moving forward with your life.

Accept that what is done is done and focus instead on both what you have gained experientially through this situation, as well and the merits of your relationship with your husband. With pure intent to set things right, situations such as this can be turned around directly or indirectly to the benefit of all parties. There simply is no good reason to throw it all away. I wish you well!

Daiva's Response 04/12/02
Thank you very much for the dream interpretation, your comments and all the spiritual help that I got from you. When I first wrote to you I have never expected I could get so much from you. I got more just one dream's interpretation. I was holding onto my dream - it was like your example I've read on the site - if you believe something very very much, the sand can turn into the diamond. I thought my love for Paul would turn out this way. But I couldn't leave my husband, couldn't hurt him and his parents, when Paul had asked me to come with him. I just couldn't do it, in spite of everything, for better or worse. It is very hard. But I know I deserve something more than just pain, pangs of conscious. I now remain with your interpretations and advices. I read it all very often. And I will try to find this light within myself. When I do this, noone will never take it away. And maybe I'll be able to share this light with others as well. Dear Carine, you've done so much for me, and I feel as if I've known you for years.

Thank you very much for everything
Best regards
Daiva